The meaning behind the name:
According to Philippine mythology, there once lived a tribal princess named Princess Urduja. She was a warrior who fought amongst men.
And not only was she strong, she was also very beautiful. So beautiful that in order to choose one suitor from the many, she decided that the only man who was worthy of her was a man who could defeat her in battle.
She wanted a man who was strong enough for her, who could uphold her.
However, there was no man who could match her skills and strength, and died unmarried but independent.
I feel her story encompasses my struggles as a woman in a man's world. As well as the fact that my name is in her name: Urduja
you will find someone,
who won’t sigh at words like commitment,
and whose jaw won’t clench, when you ask them to stay.
you will spit out the word ‘love’ so often,
that it will follow water down the drain and into the earth,
and you’ll see your work shining on the pavement.
you will be able to make your rent,
and still have a few bucks left over to waste on this month’s boyfriend;
waste it on yourself.
you will believe in something so deeply,
that it alone will be enough to make your feet touch the hardwood floor every morning.
you’ll laugh at all the moments, which at the time, made you feel as if there was nothing to live for, the moments where tomorrow’s chances of occurring, seemed slim to none.
the thoughts that lied in between your hair and the pillow sheets will finally reach your reality. And every tear stained, broken hearted, night;
will have been worth it.
Wait for it.
I learned you grew up living a life without kindness. And despite how damaging and useless everyone says it is, I’m still willing to stick around to show you kindness and teach you what it means.
Because this is how Christ taught me to love.
Love people, even after they betray you. Love people, even after they kill you.