The meaning behind the name:
According to Philippine mythology, there once lived a tribal princess named Princess Urduja. She was a warrior who fought amongst men.
And not only was she strong, she was also very beautiful. So beautiful that in order to choose one suitor from the many, she decided that the only man who was worthy of her was a man who could defeat her in battle.
She wanted a man who was strong enough for her, who could uphold her.
However, there was no man who could match her skills and strength, and died unmarried but independent.
I feel her story encompasses my struggles as a woman in a man's world. As well as the fact that my name is in her name: Urduja
It’s very hard for me to catch feelings for someone. Genuine feelings, I mean.
For the longest time I always felt like I needed to give guys chances because they took the effort to pursue me.
But after many misconnections and psychotic behaviour, I’ve come to learn that I don’t owe anybody anything.
I don’t owe anybody anything.
I want to be just as adventurous and intellectual as you, Mom.
I thought I was the one with the right to be bitter & angry. I don’t understand how the roles ended up switching.
But seriously, it’s so hard for two people to like each other at the same time.
Timing is everything.
It’s funny how the one I want doesn’t want me. And the ones who want me are the ones I DON’T WANT NOT IN A MILLION YEARS OR EVER AND IM APPALLED AT HOW CONFIDENT THEY ACT TOWARD ME BUT ALL I WANT TO DO IS PUNCH THEM SO HELP ME GOD.